Hmmm… Not a good day i guess! First one since dad died. First one since Deb killed our child. Yeah. Fathers Day kinda smarts. Theres a Crash Test Dummies song which says "he might be a father but he sure aint a dad!" which always sticks in my mind. Wish i could be a dad to Jack, wish i could have been a dad to the child deb refused to allow life to. Wish my father would have been my dad too.
Theres a lot of resentment in me, and at the moment i want to allow it to fester. I guess that way, i can wait til its right then expell it completely with one good squeeze.
Not a happy bunny